For a little perspective I’ll start this post off with a picture of the past two days…
And now to more positive things…So around 11:30 I was pacing the living room with my screaming baby, crying myself. While I’d made it practically the whole previous day without crying-until the very end. I was not as “mentally sound” the second day of the screaming and so *I* started in on my crying at 11:30. But, before I could get well and truly beside myself.. my dear friend Marie stopped by to drop off milk ( seriously, such good friends), she took one look at me and took Ransom away to her house.
And so I took a shower and a nap…in silence. I then brought my little screaming baby home and my friend and neighbor Michelle dropped off more groceries and stayed to work her baby whisperer magic on Ransom for a while.
Thus I got through yet another screaming day. To be honest I do not know if I would be as grateful, as reflective as I am now about the wonderful help that God has blessed me with this week if Ransom hadn’t decided to do his version of the exorcist…So, haha, I’d like to think I’ve learned my lesson and that I am properly thankful now so that we can STOP these awful crying spells…but just incase I hadn’t gotten the full and complete message from God, I also received a package in the mail today from my dear friend Katie M.
And so I took my package into the bathroom and opened her letter while I was peeing…I tell you this because seriously that’s the kind of multi-tasking I’ve been reduced to…I now open the mail on the toliet because I only have time for ONE activity between screaming fits…but I digress…
Katie’s letter explained that she’d been inspired ( I think by the holy spirit) to make me a absolutely incredible encouragement pillow based off of a blog post that I wrote back in 2009 about a missionary couple, the Boardmans. Little did Katie know, but I actually have, more than once, gone back and read that blog post to remind myself of the Big Picture, for the Boardmans, while I only met them twice before they both passed away, have been some of the most lasting influential people in my spiritual life…and Katie had done for me what I couldn’t do for myself ( in the post I actually said: “If there was ever anything worthy of being embroidered on a pillow, if I knew how, THAT would be something worth embroidering!” ) and put their life motto on a pillow for me!!
And so there I was crying in the bathroom…but this time because I was so grateful that the Lord has blessed me SO MUCH this week. Beyond what I could have imagined. He has showed me just how very MUCH in need of His grace I really am! And let me tell you. that can be awfully humbling! And so now I am renewed in my prayers for both myself and especially for Brett, that we would live out these next few months for His glory ( and its very clear that it’ll only be through His grace that that will be possible!)
So THANK YOU Katie for the wonderful reminder that I can look at all the time!