I mean, I’ve got to laugh, right? Otherwise, I’d probably cry. Truth be told I don’t think we’re very good at this whole overseas move thing. We’ve been here 8 days. Maybe it’s 9? Not entirely sure. But whatever the case….I feel like we might as well have gotten here yesterday when it comes to how much we’ve gotten accomplished in “settling in.”
Let me sum it up. We still do not have German phone numbers. We still do not have a German bank account.* We have no car. We have no house. Two of my kids are registered for school. But turns out it’s the wrong school….
*To get a German Bank Account you need a German phone number to prove you’re a real person. To get a German phone number you need to have a german bank account. And I’m not screaming, you’re screaming.
And all the while, I have this sneaking suspicion that everyone around us at the Temporary Housing Lodge has it more together than we do. Which, sadly, is the worst feeling of all. I feel like a failure.
BUT. Brett reminded me how the Children of Israel had to wander around for 40 years in the Wilderness. In that story, the Israelites are for sure not coming across as the cool kids. It’s 100% a God is the hero story. ( So, I guess its ok that we’re not coming off very well so far in this move. Go ahead, shake your heads…Brett and Abigail aren’t good at this.)
But the important thing to remember is, it says in Deuteronomy chapter 8: ” Your clothing did not wear out, and your feet did not swell.”
Even though they were stuck in the wilderness (because of their own stupidity and fear), God sustained them. And that’s maybe a bit how I feel right now.
We’re stuck in a tiny apartment-but its super nice and clean and well maintained. We don’t have a car-but we can walk to the grocery store. We don’t have a lot going on, but the kids and I have been doing VBS across the street all week because of a “chance” encounter on our second day here. SO YEAH. We’re being sustained. The Lord is the hero of this story not us.
I’m hoping we aren’t stuck here for 40 years, or even 40 days. But if we are. Let God be the hero of this story. Let Him be the one who is glorified, even when we are stupid and can’t even figure out the most basic things. Let Him be the one to provide what we need when we NEED* it.
*Incidentally, it’s a real bummer that God’s definition of when I need something is so clearly different from my own. haha! But such is the realization that I need more refining!