Well, its time!! I’ll use the fact that Mother’s Day is this Sunday as my excuse to drop this Abigail Bomb on you. ( I AM NOT PREGNANT)
When I first was telling the world (aka my instagram stories) that I was excited about getting my blog back up and running I mentioned things I wanted to “talk about” here…and I also teased a big reveal. My very own father texted me characteristically late in the evening to warn me that if I was going to tell my blog something he didn’t already know then I was going to be in trouble.
I’m 34 but the threat of being in trouble was enough for me to take pause. Did Papa know what I was about to say?!
I’m pretty sure. I mean, sure I sold it with some hype on my insta-stories, but in reality this is something that’s been ongoing with me for a while. And I’ve talked to a lot of different people about our journey in this direction. It goes back to this post, right here. Something that was originally in my book, but then I was given good counsel by my editors that it didn’t really fit. It came out of the book, but it is still very much a part of my story. Because of this brush with Abortion ( please go read that blog post if you haven’t already!!!) it made me stop and think more than I ever had about this awful reality.
It surprisingly has turned into having more of a sympathetic heart for women who find themselves in the hardest of places: Pregnant but not wanting to be a mother. Over the last 5 years or so I’ve read so many stories, I’ve also been introduced and become friends with women who’ve had abortions in their past. My heart for these women has decidedly changed. Sure, my heart is still broken in pieces for their babies that were lost, but I also feel the brokenness of the world that brought about that loss and I can no longer ignore it.
I very much want to be a part of the solution. I want to have the opportunity to love someone through an unwanted pregnancy, to help them on that incredibly hard road. I want to be able to adopt their baby and therefore give a woman a different option. I realize the lie circulated about abortion is that its the “easy” option. But from what I’ve heard from those who have chosen it, it literally sits with them the rest of their lives. I so want to help rescue a girl from that impossible choice. I want to help them through a pregnancy that they never really wanted, but now has the possibility of bringing about absolute beauty!
I could go on and on about this forever…
But, basically, we’ve looked into open infant adoption but turns out we don’t have 30k laying around (funny that). And we even widened the scope, and in the process broke our hearts wide open by learning about international adoptions and foster care ( incidentally, I will be forever grateful for this journey, just for the fact of being introduced to 4Kids -what an incredible foster ministry!!) …but my heart returned over and over again to the lost and frightened girl considering termination of a pregnancy….I just COULDN’T GET HER OUT OF MY MIND.
And that’s where I’m at right now. I’ve given to just praying about it ( its on my prayer card-obviously) but I’ve heard some truly miraculous stories that give me hope about God incredibly putting women in that path of someone willing to adopt their baby….but the problem with a woman considering abortion is that she’s probably only a short way into her pregnancy! She probably isnt showing at all!! How do I find such a girl!?! I joked with a friend recently that maybe I needed a shirt that says, “I’ll take your baby.” but then obviously I’d have to put “but not in a creepy way) underneath. So, yeah…that probably won’t work.
So that’s where we are. Waiting. Wondering. Trying to have an open hand and heart about it. So now I’ve officially started blogging about this- and you can go ahead and expect more on this topic…